God is good! All the time!
What a simple, but often overlooked truth! I gotta say, if God provides all your needs in every way, shape, and form, how CAN you overlook that? I do have to admit though, I am (most unfortunately) guilty of that at times :P Today I read Psalm 13 and it's about David feeling like God is not paying attention to him and that He isn't gonna pull through during the hard times he was going through, but then David thinks about how God has pulled through and provided in numerous occasions and he praises Him for that! Well right now, I feel quite like David in that chapter. In fact, how many of us DON'T feel like that at times?? God really does have a different way of doing things than us. Sometimes it's frustrating and you just want to rip your hair out because of the "God, You're going too slow" feeling. As humans (and especially in this day and age), we just want things the way we want it and now. Just look at fast food, high speed internet (even internet on phones), and overnight shipping! It's no wonder we can't utilize patience and contentment! As christians, that just makes it more of a challenge, but I know it's possible to do...just not on our own! :P
I swear I sound like a broken record, but seriously, life can just be difficult and annoying at times! Especially thinking about the future! There is sooo much to think about and seemingly so little time! (You're probably thinking, "Oh dear, here he goes again..."). But really, even though I may sound confident in where God is leading me in life, I never fully am until I have reached that point. Even when it seems like God has made something "crystal clear" or "undoubtedly revealed", I STILL pray about the matter anyways! I think if we're trusting God to lead us to where He wants us in life, we should ALWAYS pray for His guidance and wisdom, even when we already feel sure. If you have everything figured out...you're not human! haha! I thought so many times God was showing me something or revealed something to me and it ended up changing at some point. I kinda learned from there on, to be honest, lol! God has a way of flipping things around if He desires and if you're not ready, or not expecting it, you're going to be in for a real shock! Basically, never say "never"! And I'm not referring to Justin Bieber, hahaha!!
The discipling I'm doing is going pretty well, but I have to admit, it is hard to get into the mindset of a middle schooler when you feel so past that age, lol! My thinking and personality are so different that I feel like I just can't relate to them. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love discipling, but perhaps middle schoolers aren't "my thing". The problem is, I can't really do high schoolers at the moment because I'm so close in age with them, so that's why I think middle schoolers are the better choice for now. I also still pray if this is what God wants me to do right now. 'Cause honestly, I'm not really sure if I should be discipling at the moment. As I said, I still pray about something even when it seems all "put together", because you never know. If you still don't ask for God's guidance all because you think He's totally revealed something to you, you could be totally missing out on something else God is showing or revealing to you, and that (in my opinion) is a great loss! Sadly, it is quite easy to do...I'm trying to get out of that.
Man, seriously, growing up can be a real pain...there is so much to think about and to consider as you "come of age", so to speak. I'm almost done with my AA degree, but that means I have to think about what I want to do afterwards (or more importantly, what God wants for me!). I'm currently thinking of a second part-time job and, actually, marriage, lol! Obviously I'm not going to get married now, but man, I am really reaching that age and it seems time to really be thinking about it :/ There's so much to consider with that and that's in addition to thinking about my career! Man, I'm driving myself nuts just thinking about thinking it! lol! The thing is, I know God has someone out there for me (if it's His will for me to even get married at some point), but I still have a problem with patiently waiting! :P Oh well, there's really nothing else for me to do, but pray for His will and guidance :)
I'm still psyched about going into ministry! It is said that ministry doesn't pay well, which is true, but I think it would be not only rewarding, but also amazing to see God pull through and provide all the needs, even if you don't have a lot of money! Personally, I would rather make zero dollars and see God provide my every need than to have all the money in the world, but miss out on God working! That would be quite a loss and I don't plan on giving in to that! I have talked to people in ministry and they have told me soooo many awesome stories about how God pulled through, sometimes even at the last minute! To hear about His protection and provision is sooo inspiring and just, I don't know, no words can even describe how I feel with that!
So even though I know God is leading me into youth ministry, I'm still praying and asking for guidance about it because you never know if that could very well change; it could even be something similar, but not exactly what I initially thought. And if so, I know His hands will be upon the situation anyway, so that is extremely comforting to know!!
God is good! All the time!! :)
"...being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6